Amie Talks about Death Again

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“That is the Mama skeleton, and that is the Baba skeleton, and that is the big sister and the baby brother skeleton, and…”

Yesterday evening I was helping Amie get to sleep – I just lie next to her in the dimmed light, in our bed (we still cosleep), hold her hand, and read a book while she stares and stares until finally her eyelids drop.

I was reading Wallace Stegner’s Angle of Repose, which I find fascinating, and suddenly she said, so totally out of the blue:

– I want Baba to die before you.

I fairly couldn’t disguise my shock. That’s probably why she changed to:

– I don’t want you and Baba to die before me.

And still I was speechless. So she said:

– I only want people that I don’t know to die. Tell me all the people I know who have died! Tell me their names!

– No one you know has died. But Opa’s Mama and Baba have died.

– I know that!

– As well as Oma’s Mama and Baba, and Thamm’s Mama and Baba, and Dada’s Baba.

Maybe listing all those dead Mamas and Babas was not a good idea. So I added:

– But what is dying? I don’t find it scary at all. Our bodies just fall apart, and then there’s nothing.

– Our brains stop working, right?

– Yes, no more thinking or dreaming or sleeping or walking or playing…

– That’s so boring!

– Well, you can’t even be bored,  because you’re dead.

While she pondered this I had the occasion to regret my cop-out. She was talking not of dying, but of being left behind. So I said, more honestly this time:

– Don’t worry about dying, because we don’t know when we’ll die, you or I, and worrying about it doesn’t make a difference.

Was she content with that? She fell silent, and I returned to my book, and she stared at me for a while, then fell asleep.

{other conversations about death here and here and here}

I got the news that they’ve made a movie of McCarthy’s book, The Road – with Vigo Mortensen, so a mainstream movie. I am of course not going to see it (I must be nuts!), but part of me is extremely anxious for those who will, and another part is extremely curious about the effect.  But mainly just thinking about it gives me the shivers.

Today’s Food and Garden Work

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  1. warm and bright out, emptied all the rain barrels, stashed them upside down, and reconnected gutters
  2. raked leaves, emptied pots and containers, stashed them in shed
  3. Amie raked leaves too (cough)
  4. drank two large coffees (more milk than espresso)
  5. baked and pureed 5 sugar pie pumpkins
  6. will reserve puree for pumpkin bread (not for today), will freeze rest
  7. will roast pumpkin seeds later
  8. made leek and potato soup
  9. made veggie stock with the dark greens of the leek and other veggie scraps, will freeze in cubes
  10. boiled sweet potatoes, then fried with caramelized onions and lots of ground pepper
  11. will have sweet potatoes and soup (with raw milk) for dinner with homemade bread and (not as yet homemade) butter
  12. will freeze leftovers
  13. miraculously found room in my fridge for raw milk delivery for friend
  14. started new wheat grass sprouts
  15. Amie is having an early dinner of boiled carrots, humus and a farm fresh (chicken) egg omelet… with ketchup, and she promised she would try the potato leek soup {tried it, did not like it}
  16. which reminds me I have to make a go of the chickpeas next year
  17. looking forward to evening, work on novel again – lots of good ideas!

Independence Days – Weeks 12 and 13

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Amie wowed at Times Square

Missed last week because of sickness and a trip to the Big Apple – about which soon!

Plant. Nothing, except for ongoing sprout experiments.

Harvest. Herbs for drying, wheat grass from sprouter, chard and one or two carrots from garden.

Preserve. Drying catnip, mint, sage, oregano, thyme. Drying apples. Baked more sugar pumpkins (now on major sale) and froze the puree.

Waste not. Mulched bags and bags of leaves from our neighbor. He rounds up our leaves for us (yes, with his dreaded gasoline powered leaf blower – read here for my old rant) and in exchange we let him dump his leaves on the (as yet) undeveloped part of our property. Whatever we don’t compost stays there as a mulch and weed suppressor.

Want not. I am finding Sharon’s Food Storage Quickies very helpful, and this week on her recommendation I bought 5 lbs of rolled oats. Also bought 20 lbs of whole wheat flour (in freezer). I started experimenting with a more organized list of our food storage and emergency supplies.

Build community food systems. Talked with a friend and several of the moms at Amie’s preschool about raw milk. Food is always an easy connector with acquaintances and neighbors, and usually they’re very encouraging of our efforts. I’m usually very careful about how I word our food adventures, though: I never imply any judgment of their food choices, I just tell my own tale. The  raw milk tale is definitely a good one (I’ll tell it here soon).

Eat the food. My first bread was undercooked, the second overcooked, and on the third I forgot to make the cut on top – so it can expand – and it came out a wonderful shape not fit for photography. After so many people scrunching up their noses when we mentioned duck eggs, we loved them with wheat grass in an omelet. A pity the lady who sells them to our supplier is going to stop for the Winter. We decided to eat more fish, as our meat consumption is even lower now than it was (Amie and DH eat meat once a week, I have it at most once a month). I wonder and tilapia like to share a pond?

Death and Sex Give Away

People, I just received Death and Sex from Chelsea Green and I am just blown away. It is a lovely book, consisting of two texts bound together beautifully, and with great humor. Reading all the rave reviews at the beginning of each text makes me want to pour that cup of coffee, sink into sunlit sofa and read.

This one, for instance: “Dorion Sagan and Tyler Volk show us sex is optional and death is necessary” (Adam Daniel Stulberg). And: “quotidian simplicities are dissolved in the acid of evolutionary theory” (Andrew Lionel Blais).

I had forgotten to set a deadline for the Give-Away. We’ll be drawing a name on Wednesday 18th at 6 pm EST. Grab a chance while you can!

{UPDATE} And the book goes to… Carol! Congratulations, I’ll stick it in the mail as soon as I have your address.

Book Giveaway: Death and Sex

Now this is book I’m interested in reading: Death and Sex by Tyler Volk and Dorion Sagan published by  Chelsea Green – my favorite publisher (see my reviews of Coperthwaite’s Handmade Life, here, here, and here). Looks like it will fit perfectly in my daily regimen of gardening and homesteading books and peak oil and climate change info. You can read parts of the book on Chelsea Green’s great blog, here, and below is an excerpt.

Also, featuring this excerpt here earns me the book, for free, plus another copy, for one of my readers. That means this is my first book give away! If you would like it, indicate such in a comment and I’ll mail it to you.

Enjoy!

The following is an excerpt from Death & Sex by Tyler Volk and Dorion Sagan. It has been adapted for the Web. The source is here.

From chapter 4: Recycling of the Dead

When carbon ends its “lifetime” in the biosphere, it doesn’t stop being carbon. It merely passes into a deeper zone. One is reminded here of ancient myths that feature souls, victims, or heroes descending into the underworld, as a dramatic moment in the story. Like those mythic souls presumed to continue to live but in a new form, so carbon transported downward and outside the vibrant biosphere, after “burial,” continues to be carbon but somewhere deep and dark, and often hot.

Carbon is buried as detritus from dead marine plankton when it fluxes out of the dynamic surface system in the form of tiny calcium carbonate shells. The coal we mine to burn for electricity is the dead and highly compressed remains of giant ferns and mosses from dinosaur-era swamps. Our precious, diminishing reserves of oil were long, long ago the sediments underneath some of the world’s most productive marine areas ever. Verdant patches of algae grew, then fell into the sediments at such rapid rates of death that even the voracious bacteria alive there could not keep up with the rain from what was their heaven. The sites and rates of death that led to the fossil fuels upon which modern civilization came to depend were historically unique burial traps.

More commonly, carbon that was buried from organic tissue in the form of the bodies of plankton was finely dispersed. Today we see it as the black tincture in rocks such as shale, in contrast with the pervasive white of limestone rock that entombs once-living carbon in a paler shade.

All these buried forms of carbon can eventually spring back up, like the ancient Greek myth of Persephone emerging from the underworld to bestow life to the surface. She was said to rise up annually, as a rite of spring. But carbon’s stay below is typically millions to hundreds of millions of years. Its ports of reentry are the volcanoes and surfaces of rocks that dissolve when exposed to soil, rain, and weather, thereby returning carbon to the surface circulation of active cycles.

How dependent is life in the sunny biosphere upon this resurrected carbon? In the long run, very dependent. Without the reemergence—a kind of biogeochemical reincarnation, if you like—all carbon would slowly and surely exit from the interconnected surface system of life, air, soil, and water. Emergence would be limited to only truly primordial carbon that comes up as a portion of volcanic activity.

From chapter 7: Built from Death

Surpassing in some ways the wonders of death within the living animal body are the roles of the functional dead in sculpting the towering lives of trees. If you go inward from the bark, past a thin layer of cells called the phloem and another narrow layer of cells that are actively reproducing, you come to a notable layer called the xylem.

The xylem consists of tubular columns of dead cells that function to move mineral-laden water gathered by the roots up to the needles or leaves. Its special, dead cells are called tracheids. Tracheids (or, when grouped into units, tracheid elements) not only provide water and mineral circulation but also support the entire tree in its climb upward against gravity. Without tracheids there would be no forests or grasslands, no green life on land, except for some ground-hugging tiny mosses and a paltry soil coat of photosynthetic bacteria and algae. For not only do trees contain tracheids, so do all nonwoody herbaceous plants. Tracheids are in all stems, branches, and trunks of trees, in the shoots of grasses, in flower stalks (usually in their centers), and even in the veins of leaves. In all these instances, the dead are part of the living.

Without the evolutionary invention of tracheids just inside 400 million years ago, the land today would be virtually deserted. For more than 90 percent of Earth history, neither land plants nor their vital tracheids existed. And because tracheids are dead, in them we have an ideal example of how nature turns death into life to create organisms from cells.

Summer 2009 Tally and Notes for 2010 (#2)

This is the second in a series of posts tallying the Spring and Summer harvest in lbs, success, and satisfaction, and noting recommendations for next year’s Spring and Summer garden.

  • Carrots

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The little carrots (Nantes) took a long time to grow (much longer than the packet advised) but in the end they shaped up nicely, and I harvested about 20 little ones (from 1 batch). More carrots are in the ground as we speak, and I’ll harvest them in the coming month.

2010: I will be growing carrots next year, for sure, but more of them, and they will have to go into the ground much earlier and in succession. The Winter hoop house is one place where I’ll be planting the first batch, as early as possible in Spring. I like the Nantes for daily consumption, but I will try some other, larger varieties as well for storing and as Winter crops.

  • Radishes

The radishes were a failure as they were almost all maggot eaten. I wasn’t to cut up about it, because no one in the household liked the two or three that made it. I planted them as companion plants anyway. Did they attract the maggots that would otherwise have eaten my carrots? Did they enhance the flavor of the potatoes and the chard?

2010: I’ll be using up the rest of the seed packet, again tucking them in here and there for companion planting, but I won’t be devoting whole square feet to them.

  • Eggplant

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These small eggplant (Applegreen) tasted fantastic, and there were no problems with the plants, no bugs or blight or anything. But they grew large and leafy and didn’t yield much, probably because of the dimness of our season. In all I harvested only 7 of these eggplants full-grown and 3 immature (but still yummy) ones.

2010: I will plant these again, in the Summer hoop house (= the Winter hoop house moved to four different beds in the middle of Spring), which will allow me to plant them earlier and to extend their season. I am also looking into a vining eggplant which may take up less space.

  • Onions

The onions were a total bust. None of those expensive onion sets grew, full stop: after months they were still the same size as when I put them in! At least the onions I grew from seed myself grew into spring onions, which were delicious, but too few to be weighed.

2010: Onions (along with potatoes and carrots) were supposed to be our main root cellar crop, and they are a basic ingredient in a lot of what we cook. So I will try onions again, but all from seed – the sets are too expensive. Maybe our soil is too clayey, so I’ll experiment with making it lighter.

  • Green beans

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The green beans (Provider and Maxibel) were a big success. Those plants had a rough start, being knocked down in the rains until I strung a net/mesh over them. But one they got going they were prolific and they kept on producing until the first frost wiped them out. Amie and I love harvesting them, and there was always enough for our dinner. And Amie loves eating them too – it’s the only vegetable she will readily eat (some of). From the first, sunny bed (3 x 8 feet)  which we called the “old bed” we harvested 7 lbs. From the smaller, “new”bed (2 x 8 feet) we put in much later in a less sunny spot we harvested 3 lbs.

2010: 10 lbs of green beans was impressive (I thought) but it was just enough for our daily consumption, and I had to buy extra at the Farmers Market for canning. Next year I’ll devote at least two full beds to them, though those beds will probably not be as sunny as our “old bed”. I will also put the netting on earlier to keep the plants from falling over in the rain. I also want to try more pole green beans, as a space saver.

Another Indian Summer Day

Today is warming up into the 60s, like yesterday, but yesterday I was cowering in the pit of the second round of this darned cold. Today I feel much better. I’m baking a second bread from the dough I made earlier,  opening all the windows to air out the house, doing loads of laundry and hoping my lines will hold the weight (sheets and blankets). Maybe I’ll even get to put compost and straw on the beds. All that fresh air will do me good.

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One thing I absolutely must do today is carve the vase I made in my pottery class. I had a lot of help from my lovely teacher, so now I need to “make it mine,” as she puts it, by carving it. It will make for a lovely present, and I’m happy it will be kilned, glazed and ready before the holidays. I’m thinking a fine botanical pattern winding all around…

Here’s a thing I like  a lot, how life, family (multi-generational too), work and business share one smallish space (1200 sq.f.).

{later}

  1. carve pot – v
  2. laundry – v
  3. bread – v
  4. air house – v
  5. rake tons of leaves – v
  6. compost and straw on beds – nope

Drying Herbs and Saving Seeds

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I dried a large mint plant (catnip) in my kitchen, hanging it upside down from the ceiling with a plate underneath for the dropping seeds. The leaves go into a ball jar for tea, the flowers go into a little muslin bag for potpourri, and the seeds into an envelope in my seed storage box.

I was so glad to collect those seeds. It was always my intention to grow from seed to seed, and I never diverted from the “from” part. But I didn’t harvest the seed from many plants, like my tomatoes and even the green beans, because I got typically bogged down and intimidated by issues of cross pollination.  Also, most of the seed envelopes I ordered at the beginning of the season are still more than half full, so I felt no urgent need.

But I will save the seed from the many herb plants that are still alive on my porch (we haven’t had a serious freeze yet). I’ll have to find another room and a different setup though, to dry that many. It will be good to figure it out for next year.

I Made Bread in 2 x 5 Minutes, No Kneading!

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I love cooking but I’m intimidated by baking (don’t know why). But we are  desperate for some good, organic bread that doesn’t cost $5 and that is right at hand in the kitchen and pantry. So when I read this Master Recipe for a boule from Artisan Bread in Five Minutes a Day by Jeff Hertzberg and Zoe François – available on Mother Earth News – I knew I couldn’t lose by trying.

It literally takes 5 minutes to make the dough (enough for 4 1 lb loaves). After letting it rise for a minimum of 2 hours you refrigerate it for a minimum of 3 hours and a maximum of 2 weeks. On baking day you pull it out of the fridge, cut off a chunk and take 5 minutes to prepare it for baking (about 30 minutes). No need for several rises and, best of all, no kneading.

And voila, le boule:

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It was not the failure I was expecting—What is wrong with me! It’s great! I’m on my third slice, with just butter.

I will adjust the cooking time a bit, and I’ll put more salt into the next batch. The idea is to proceed to the heavier, more nutritious breads, like the thick and moist whole grain bread I used to devour as a kid. I remember the loaf came with a small white wafer stuck on top.  But this was my first-ever bread, and I know better than to take each re-skilling effort beyond my nearest scaffold.

I now also keep a roll of basic sugar cookie dough in the fridge. When we feel like cookies, I preheat the oven, slice off as many as we want, and within 15 minutes we’re munching on them.

I might become a baker after all.

And after baking I keep the oven door open so we can benefit again from all that residual heat.

Art Work, Reading, Writing and Algebra

We’re all retreating into the living room around the warm fire. There’s so much to do in this contracted world.

  • Art

Not a day goes by when Amie doesn’t work at her art. She’ll often pronounce “I am practicing because I want to be an artist.” She enjoyed discovering the technique of splashing by rubbing an old toothbrush over a net. She also likes our instruction book on how to draw basic animal figures (ours is an out-of-print Usborne). She was intrigued when I drew some circles and proposed she draw the basic emotions. She got them down right without my help, contorting her face to feel the shape of her mouth, her eyes and nose.

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Lions, step by step, from How to Draw Animals

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Trying the toothbrush and net splash technique, and the result:

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Emotive faces

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Girl on a bike, from a (paused) video

The last drawing was made from a tiny video still, and Amie became very frustrated with it because it wasn’t turning out exactly the way it looked on the screen. I explained that it was a very difficult subject – the word “subject” is now her favorite – and that the example was really too small. Still, she was nearly in tears, and I cursed myself for not gently leading her away from the project. l will be conscious of  this perfectionist streak in her and help her keep it under control. I know how it can ruin the fun! (Also read Lori’s helpful advice in the current Camp Creek Blog thread).

  • Reading

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Our 100-books-a-month table, with list

Amie is reading spontaneously now, here and there. Only last week she deciphered “Reese’s Buttercup” and “travel” and “cheese,” all of her own accord. Three-letter-words are read fluently, as well as certain sight words like “the” and “and”. Four-letter-words will soon be rolling off her tongue as well.

I know that at her preschool (Montessori) she uses cards and lists of words and all kinds of reading aids, but here at home she just reads books. She has mostly stopped trying to guess what the words could be by looking at the pictures – not all “first books” are clever in that regard! – but she’s good about using the context of the story and the sentence to speed up her reading. In our 100-book-a-month challenge we are aiming for 1 out of 4 to be read by her.

  • Writing

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Amie lists another title

Writing does not come as spontaneously as reading does, but she has gone from penning nonsense words and collections of letters to spelling out real words. When I suggest she write the title of a book we’ve read in our 100-books list, she readily grabs the pen and sets to the job. She will read the words and spell them out as she writes them down, or she’ll copy the letters of the more difficult ones and wonder aloud why some are spelled the way they are. What can I say, English is a funny language! For the latter though I’d rather she use invented spelling than mere copying, which becomes automatic and then she mindlessly forgets letters.

We are now starting to pay attention to her penmanship: the size of the letters (I draw lines) and whether she wants to use capitals or small letters. She still feels more comfortable with the capitals.

  • Math

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Doing algebra

Amie will happily spend half an hour on algebra exercises, but usually only with constant encouragement or if we sell it as “homework”. She’ll also do basic exercises on DH’s Ipod. She can solve:

5+8 – _

5+_=13

13-5=_

etc.

For anything under 5 and the addition or subtraction of 1 she no longer needs her fingers, doing them in her head – though sometimes it helps her to imagine cookies. She’ll still resort to her fingers, and her toes if need be, for the higher numbers, and we usually stay under 20. We don’t use flash cards but cheapo math books, because she likes to make that mark. It doesn’t have to be fancy, but she does like a sticker as lure and reward, and it helps if the math is presented as a game, like a maze.